Expectations

Today is my birthday, I admit I had high expectations from my family and friends-and for the most part I should have aimed low, low,low. Birthdays are a big deal for me, to me-its each persons one day when it truly is all about that person for a day. Special cake,special meal,presents each geared to that persons taste - that's how I roll anyway. So I assumed that with me having been so sick and having to go back into the hospital Tuesday for even more surgery, well hell I thought this one will be one to brag about in years to come.

Not happening- not even close, which made me MAD-which then led to guilt feelings,just because I make a big deal about birthdays doesn't make it wrong that other people dont
And its not fair for me to to thrust my expectations on other people or to feel put out because I did this for so and so on there birthday and they didn't even acknowledge mine.

It is what it is.....and deal with it I will

Wednesday's only in Texas (one for the ladies)

Ummmmm nice truck???

updates

My son came back home yesterday, if you remember a past post(this is not a democracy)
he and the girlfriend called it done and the daddy said begone from this house. It's nice having him home but he hasn't figured out the rules do apply to him. (sigh) he thinks he does no wrong.

The glorified rat (hamster) was caught and put back in his cage. Wooohoooo

We actually stayed under 90 degrees today and they say rain.

School supplies have been bought and stand ready to enter the halls of edumaction-standings
1 first grader 1 senior what a combination.

Day 2 with the picc line and the wound vac at home-fingers crossed that things start to heal or I will be back in the hospital Thursday to start all over again.

Father Daughter Time

Since I have been either in the hospital or pretty much on the couch for the last month. My poor hubby has been set to task to keep our 6 yr old somewhat entertained. He does not enjoy barbies, ponies,playing house ect....

So here are some of the things they have done over the past month. They made a homemade scented candle (barbecue scented) wax spilled-dried on the stove and down in the drip pans-results one scented candle 1 drip pan ruined and the barbecue stench from hell.

They went to see the movie Chimps in Space which I think he enjoyed more than she did.

They have made numerous trips to the feed store, Home Depot.Heb and Walmart.

A trip to the mall is in the plan for this upcomming week for school clothes.

They went to http://www.schlitterbahn.com/ for a day (yeah for daddy because he is not about water or getting wet) what a good sport.

Between these outings they have hit all the sporting goods storeshttp://academy.com/

http://sportsmanswarehouse.com/ and of course http://cabelas.com/

So this is what appears in a 6 year olds tackle box and what every self respecting 6 yr old girl should be wearing (insert major sarcasm please)

Honest the hubby has been a dream he has kept the business going,taken care of our 6 year old,all the animals and even managed to vacum,do the laundry, and come and see me.

so this is for you babe thank you and I love you.

%^&&**(!!!!!! RANT(*&&^%$%$#@@@

Im tired of being in the hospital,I am tired of being in pain, I miss my daughter.I just want to go home, not much to look forward to when I go home I have this picc line in my arm an open wound with a garden hose attatched and attached to that a vacumn. I AM HAVING A MAJOR PITY PARTY!!!!!!!!All I do is cry, my daughter is makimg herself sick over me being gone, the cost of all this will truly sink us. We are self employed.School starts on the 25 for my daughter, I will miss going school shopping with her, meet the teacher night, PITY PARTY I KNOW. I just had to get this out, I cant take anymore.OK I am done. thanks for reading ie listening.

More Hospital Blogging/when moms away buy the break a body part machine

Well here I am back in the most unwonderful place on earth, Ive been here since Sunday, and it ain't looking good as to when I will be going home.Surgery is scheduled for this morning. I have developed a major staph infection over the mesh in my belly. I have a picc line,with major antibiotics and drains and all kinds of nastiness.sigh.. But anyways has anyone been over to Rhonda's blog (i know i should link but to be honest i just don't feel well enough to do it all)the wedding pics are here and they are gorgeous!! I missed only in Texas wed sorry guys. the only fun news I have is while I have been in here my 6 year old daughter got her first racing cart.Daddy ain't so dumb.. wait till mommas flat on her back in the hospital and then
buy the racing sure to break a body part machine.

That's about it, nothing exciting nothing fun.

Ahhhhh to be 6 again

Last night around 8 Alexis and I took a walk around the back 40 ( its really not 40 acres its about 5) feed the goats and looked in on the baby deer we have several does and fawns living under the cedars. Our neighbor hollard over the fence hey my grand baby's are here have Alexis come over and play. She didn't even finish talking and Alexis was climbing the fence.With me just getting the stitches out there was no way my big ole butt was going over the fence. So I went got the truck and drove around to their place.By the time got there all three girls were stripped down to their Hannah Montana undies and were swimming in the pool, our neighbor has the best in ground pool, slides,diving board and fountains. We sat there watching them swim and dance and play make believe, I couldn't help but think how uptight and unwilling to slow down and enjoy the simple things in life.... like swimming in your panties and pretending to be a rock star,we as adults become. Now I know its just not politically correct for grown people to strip to there tidy whiteys and go swimming but you get where I am going with this. I did take some pictures but refrain from posting em.... well because you know in this day and age ya just cant do that sort of thing.