Quiet

Ok so its obvious I havent had much to say lately, things are pretty mundane and quiet, we have some new additions here at the ranch two baby chicks and our cat has presented us with 2 new kittens. This is the month that my mom lost her battle with lung cancer 10 years ago,we were extremly close and even though it has been 10 years sometimes the hurt is as raw as the day she passed. As most of ya'll know I spent most of last summer in the hospital trying to get my basketball sized hernia repaired, between the infections, and my body rejecting the mesh it was a horrible/painful miserable time, but at least I didnt appear to be 9 months pregnant anymore. I still have a 3 by 5 inch area that is not healed that has to be bandaged at all times, well about 3 months ago my surgeon and I noticed I was starting to grow again ( the repair has become un repaired and even bigger) I am in constant pain, and even walking is becomming no fun at all. So the doc has decided to try and repair again which means hospitable/surgery/recovery 6 weeks and god forbid any complications like last time. So I have been very reclusive and to be totally honest on a pity party to end all pity parties, I AM WORKING ON PULLING MY HEAD OUT OF MY ASS AND PUTTING ON MY BIG GIRL PANTIES AND GETTING OVER IT!!!!! thats what hopefully this post will help me