Its just aint right

These 2 plus the above 2 + 1 hubby in 1 bed = me ouuta bed at 4:30 am

Run Run Rudolph

This musical was a riot, Alexis you were wonderful!!

Hello my name is Paula and I am an addict

Sigh do ya'll see these small innocent bells of heaven? Butterfinger Jingles... A simple name, nothing outlandish or far out, simply chocolate and pieces of a well know candy bar. Its not BIG deal really another Christmas candy that's been on the shelf since 2 weeks before Halloween.

" My name is Paula and I am a butterfingerjingleaddict" it started out slow as I was cruising the seasonal isle at my local HEB (grocery store) I spotted them hmmmm I said to myself., the hubby loves Butterfinger chocolate bars... Ill bet he'd like these for his CHRISTMAS stocking.

Into the cart they went without another thought, they went into the pantry and took up residency until the big day when they would find themselves in a Christmas stocking. *fast forward till last week* I am craving chocolate, this is an all out frontal attack of craving chocolate-the kind where getting into the truck and driving to the store at 11:45 pm craving.

is not only considered but has been done before. *note addiction issues previously noted*

"Wait I said to myself" "chocolate radar buzzing... those butterfinger thingys for the hubby, that might just get it..

Shortly there after...sitting among a pile of colorful Christmas foil wrappings chocolate radar no longer at defcon 6 levels, I realize oops the hubby isn't gonna get all his treats, nothing to be too upset about plenty of time till the big day, pick up another bag.. no harm no foul. Here's where I hit rock bottom ya'll, I bought 2 bags... one for hubby and one for the candy dish at home. I opened the one for home in the truck with the idea of just one... one led to two and before I knew it there I was sitting in the truck in the grocery store parking lot surrounded by foil wrappers and no wet wipes, I looked up into the rear view mirror and the person looking back was unrecognizable, the wild eyes, the chocolate smear on my cheek. the chocolate on the steering column of my new truck,"God Help Me"

So friends this is my first step to butterfinger jingle freedom... admitting that I am powerless over jingles...

A rare moment

I found this while looking for the previous picture on my blog, this is a rare moment Thanksgiving Day 2009, I dont get to see much of my son, his lifestyle choices are polar opposite of ours, look how happy Alexis is.... I wish .....

My part of the world

Good Morning ya'll, long time no blog..... just wasn't feeling it....still reading everyone elses though... yes even yours cherkyb,thought I was going to have to revert back to your snowblower review (Texas was in line for some serious snowfall blizzard 2009 an all).

Things have been pretty complicated around here lately-my 19 yr old inherited a good chunk of money when my dad passed in July,he quit his job and literally had it spent by the end of September,so between pawning his newly bought items, selling his truck to us ( to make his rent) and us( his step dad and I trying to get him to understand what he had done to himself its been pretty dang ugly around here) We have been tough lovin it all over the place ( which we all know how popular that makes us) as of today Dec 7 he is working roughly 12 hours a week we own his truck and his pawn slips and eviction is looming... I will not give him a dime, he may come back home to live... but it sure wont be any fun, I will be handling all his money until he can learn to himself....whooohooo Merry Christmas---- not so much- Alexis sat on Santas lap for the first time Saturday, big accomplishment as Santa/the chic-fila cow/ and heaven forbid Chuckie from the cheese pizza joint send her off the deep end runng and screaming for cover as it were.

Medical updates: I spent the first part of November in the hospital the minute they took me off the antibiotics (from my hernia surgery in June) my body said hot damn lets party and the infection was up and running...Best case scenario I live on antibiotics for the next year, and ladies we all know what that entails. or I go for surgery again this will be number 7. Either way hot damn right? They hubby's only comment was..... sigh I'm fixin to get carpal tunnel.

So that's what has been going on in my little part of the world... I love being allowed into ya'lls world.

First Dance performance

Just give me the damn Happy meal

You know ya'll I am noticing the older I get the less tolerant I am of things. Things? you ask? yes things for example a simple run through the McDonalds drive thru for a healty dinner of saturated fats empty calories and a toy that will end up deep between the dark crevices of my truck where no man nor woman is willing to go. It becomes quickly a battle of wills between my self and the cashier who only speaks enough English to say boy or girl toy not to answer the world stopping all important question(according to my daughter)do you have the horse because we allready have the teddy bear. The question is greeted with this deer in the headlights look and in a flash the cashier is gone and up pops the manager "can I help you" shit eating grin like the answer will solve world hunger and bring peace to all. Ummm yeah I guess ya can help me just asking about the happy meal toy, but really I have allready spent 25 more in the drive thru than I planned and the 40 or so cars behind me are really starting to get ugly as a matter of fact... I think the 3rd truck back is reaching for some type of weapon of mass destruction so all in all can I just get the damn horse and the damn happy meal cause its now almost morning and Ill be here shortly to order pancakes to go....and if I ask for extra butter ...well we only can imagine the chaos that will create.

Only in Texas can you enjoy freshly mowed grass and geraniums bloomng like crazy the last week of October

Can you guess how Alexis and I spent our weekend?

What a weekend our first Brownie camp out... 17 girls, 3 moms and 2 troop leaders thats more hormones than any person male or female should be subject to

The calander says its fall......

But here in Texas its still in the 90's most days, hard to think about pumpkins and leaves crunching under foot when all you really wanna do is strip butt naked and yell cannon ball as you jump into the coolest pool/lake (well you get the idea) I have managed to get my fall decorations out so here they are in all thier fall glory.
(p.s) the big assed tarnatula is real AND WAS NOT STAGED I like to come unglued when I saw it in tthe camera lens.

Meet a good friend of Alexis's

This is Madison, (please scroll down to other central texas news)she is a 2nd grader like Alexis as a matter of fact she is much like Alexis, she is a Brownie, loves icarly involved in dance and so on and so on, the only difference is Madison has Downs Syndrome, but look at her what a beautiful child she is featured in this years calendar, and tonight she rides in a Limo to a Gala in honor of her and other children just like her.

OFFER ACCEPTED

Well this is it... the last chapter almost to an end, my childhood home has an accepted offer on it, theres no going back now. My p.arents are gone, there stuff is gone, I have pictures, memories and a few other things.

Theres no winding the clock back.....shes a big girl now

First day of second grade, you look beautiful Alexis and I am so proud of you!!!

Over the Top

I suprised Alexis and her best buddy with the Greatest Show on Earth,and what a show it was!! We had the best seats ever and every time the ring master stepped out of the ring he would speak to the girls or grab thier toes as he walked by!!!

Hang on Loosely

As ya'll know my dad passed away last month, I just spent the last week or so in Wisconsin cleaning out his home and taking care of the business that needs to be taken care of when someone passes away, my mom passed away 10 years ago and I am the only child so the entire task fell to me. I had some incredible help with my husband and one of our employees, and Rhonda and her family-Thank You All. The hardest thing for me to grasp was after I loaded up the things I wanted to bring home, the few things that friends of my dad picked out and the things that sold in the garage sale, there still was a huge dumpster filled to overflowing of the things that my parents accumulated over the 30 years they were married. Now these were the things that were important to my parents-my moms owl collection-her knickknacks ect. I guess what I am trying to say is... the things that are so important to us..really probably wont be that important to our own children. Maybe we should hang on loosely to the material things in life because in the end... they just fill up a dumpster.

5:30 am in the airport

WHOS WATCHING WHO???

If you are a people watcher, the airport at 5:30 in the morning is the place to be. You see it all, business people,family's, couples who you know are planning to join the mile high club.... you know who they are .

The most moving thing I saw this morning was a young Chinese couple with a 2-3 yr old little boy, this little one was a cute as can be and all over the place as little ones are. I watched him for a few minutes and then looked away...all of a sudden he was crying hysterically, the couple was gone and in their place was a stewardess doing her best to calm him. My first thought was ... what kind of parents would let such a small child fly alone. Turns out this little boy was from a very small poor village in china he was here in the states to have very delicate heart surgery and the young couple were taking care of him while he was in the states, and now he was on his way home to his parents-amazing isn't it? I am back in Wisconsin trying to take care of of my parents estate- what a job 30 years of stuff to decide to keep or not keep.

A huge Thanks to Rhonda/Amy and Mark for all your help I could not have gotten through this without ya'll

Lemonade Stand update

The girls set up the stand bright and early this am 8:00 am they got up at 5:30 am and wanted to set up then ... but I calmly asked them.... and I quote " ARE YA'LL ON DOPE?" NEEDLESS TO SAY the stand opened up later... they made an additional 16.25 - which brings the grand total to 21.75 now they are considering a garage sale for the next money making adventure.

Now if we do a debit and credit balance sheet it will look something like this...

2 containers of country time pink lemonade 1.78 each

2.00 in change I fronted them

1.69 for package of cups

2 trips to McDonalds for happy meals 3.69 each

1 poster broken off of a 4 poster bed ( jumping for joy on the bed for the above 21.75)

repair estimate 106.95

I have an invested stake of 128.96 - the pure excitement and joy the two girls experienced priceless~!!

Lemonade Stand

Alexis and her friend are running a lemonade stand they have had 4 customers and one even gave them a 5.00 bill. The excitement on their faces is incredible and it reminds me that even in my time of sadness that life is good and will go on.

I haven't said much about my dad passing away... sadly he and I had not spoke for over 4 years.... we both exchanged some ugly words and they were never taken back or apologized for. This is incredibly hard for me to live with as I am an only child and I loved both of my parents dearly. I moved here to Texas several months after my mom passed away, and luckily my dad did get to see Alexis a couple of times before we had words.My father was a hard man to please but everyone loved him. A thought ya'll please don't let hard feelings and words tear you away from the people you care about, you may find yourself unexpectedly in my shoes.

I do love you dad and am so sorry that we left things the way that we did, I hope you have found mom and are finally at peace.

Sad News

I havent been blogging, my father passed away last friday night and have been back in Wisconsin, home in Texas now but will have to go back and forth at least 2 more times.

Have you seen this show yet?

It is a classic brains vs beauty thing, but yet fresh enough to keep your attention.

Update on the job front: I have not received one call from the school district, and a lot of the postings are gone. So I will try not to be too disappointed and keep looking. But I must admit its hard on the self esteem. I truly believe its time to reevaluate my life, how I do things, how I act and react. Seeing the positives in life instead of the negatives, instead of showing the middle finger when someone cuts me off in traffic-maybe just smiling and waving, giving the grocery clerk a little slack when I'm in line with 250.00 worth of food just wanting to pay and get outta there but she would rather flirt with the bag boy-maybe just smile and think to myself man if I was 30 years younger and 50 pounds lighter id be giving her a run for her money.

More patience with my daughter-just living for the moment with her after all it seems it was just yesterday her brother was this age and now look at him hes all grown up and living on his own, and now doesn't have much time for mom. Renew some spark in the marriage being sick the last year hasn't helped much and the hubby has been a real trooper. Re evaluate my relationship with God,see I believe, I have faith but its still pretty shaky-get involved more ,give more of myself.

Get out there and live life again - I have become somewhat of a recluse embarrassed of how I looked with the basketball sized hernia-its fixed now its gone get over myself and get on with living.

ok thats that

see ya'll tommorow